~A Sinking Titanic~

Everyone back then thought that Titanic will never sink...

But in the end it did...

Broken...

My heart sunk like the great Titanic...

Tears falling all of a sudden...

I tried and tried...

But it just seems like there's no point trying...

Like I deserve nothing...

It breaks me every time when I compose that long message that's truly need to be comprehend and it breaks me even more when I realize that it is ignored...

Maybe from certain point of view, I'm just being over-emotional...

Is that it?

I'm not seeking for attention...

I just need the message to be understood...

I really tried...

And I'm still trying...

I'm putting in all the effort I can...

I'm not perfect...

And I'm not trying to be perfect...

I just want to be good enough...

I'm wrong...

But is it a necessity to call me such names?

Have I ever did anything that is so harmful to you to the point that you have to make me break that hard?

I'm mentally tired...

There are so much more but I just cant carry on...

I hope I can have a great day on the fifth day of the month of ten...

No matter how great it was...

It was still a ship...

~Burial Ground~

I broke the law...

Intruded a burial ground...

Dug out the corpse...

And I hate myself for that...

Sometimes...

Somethings are just meant to be unknown...

Why must I be so stupid...

"Curiosity kills the cat"...

Indeed... I'm dead...

I am really sorry that I let it affect me... But I just cant help it...

It is somehow heartbreaking to know what I know now... And i dont know what I should do...

It is heartbreaking because I couldnt bring myself to believe it...

Insecure... Afraid...

Tearing too much...

Thinking too much...

Am I doing the right thing?

Perhaps I'm just not used to this kind of situation...

I need time... More time...

I'm trying very hard... Trying my best to wipe everything off...

It is really my fault...

I hate the nosy me...

I have too much doubt now... Too many images wandering in my head...

Will things change?

Is it possible to change? I think it is...

Please...

May the change be possible...

I'm trying my best now...

I'm hoping the best for all...

Now...

Images of that rotting corpse keeps on haunting me...

Please bury the corpse back to where it belongs...

Please...

~Pizzled~

Hmm...

Today...

I don't like it...

First...

Complains...

Why can't people see what good stuff has a person done instead of complaining what hasn't a person done?

Why won't someone judge themselves before judging others?

And when finally someone does what you have asked for, you just won't show appreciation, but complain that it is not good enough...

That is why in the end, people stop doing what you want, because it is pointless...

So, please don't complain so much...

Shut it...

Second...

Kids...

I realize that kids these days are asking for what they do not deserve, or what they are not suppose to have...

Wasting parents' money without thinking...

Rite, parents love their children, hence giving them what they want...

NO...

Let your kids grow up, or better, grow brains...

Stop pampering them...

Stop spoiling them...

Buying PSPs, laptops, cellphones, and bla bla bla during primary school level is not going to help them get better results...

You're not suppose to buy them laptop just because they get wonderful results of ONE ace out of TEN subjects...

What's the laptop for when you're in primary or lower secondary? DOTA all day long? or to do some researches on exotic romance?

If you're rich, donate it to the charity...

There are tonnes of people who need your help out there...

I seriously don't get the idea of rewarding your children with lavishness for something that they should do...

wth...

I just don't like it...

~窗户。窗纱。窗帘~

透亮的窗户，

在不知何时，

加上了一层薄薄的窗纱，

淡化了强烈的阳光，

但，

原本清晰的外界，

因窗纱变得一片朦胧。

不久后，

窗纱前再加上了一层厚厚的窗帘，

把那淡淡的阳光都给隔着了，

也看不见外面的世界了。

今天啊，去了一趟远远的眼镜店。。。

眼力一向不太好的自己，鼻梁上在小学二年级就挂着了一副眼镜。。。

原本薄薄的镜片，现在变得越来越夸张。。。

再次验了眼睛，度数“七上八下”。。。

竟然有一边七百七十五度。。。

今天才得知，迟睡，也会影响眼睛。。。

看吧！天天几百点才睡，身体警铃开始响了。。。

反省反省啦。。。

“我试下吧。。。”

脱下眼镜的自己，简直就是朦胧得厉害。。。

还好有眼镜。。。

要不，真的要依着别人走了吧。。。

眼睛呀眼睛。。。

正常点吧。。。

真对不起自己的身子。。。

把健康给搞砸了。。。

其实，

动手开开窗帘，

开开窗纱，

窗户仍然透亮，

阳光如此温暖，

世界依然清晰。

~天黑黑~

最近，

乌云密布。

乌云越来越乌，

乌云越来越重。

天真的好黑，

但至今没有一滴雨水。

不知道怎么啦。。。

心情总是闷闷的。。。

自从一个简简单单的对白后，不快乐的事情就一而再，再而三地缠着我。。。

言语。

功课。

言语。

压力好大哦。。。

或许是自己太敏感了吧。。。

明明就是很单纯的一句话，自己却硬要把心情往下拉。。。

真是个无聊的大白痴。。。

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功课，堆积如山。。。

脑袋，一片空白。。。

外壳，一切如常。。。

内幕，翻云覆雨。。。

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虚伪的自己，真令人讨厌。。。

装什么轻松。。。

为什么自己就是那么的懦弱。。。

大胆点不就好了吗？

何时才能下个倾盆大雨。